I'm going to be honest - my heel still hurts and it consumes me constantly. Sad, but when you can't walk most days and wonder if you will ever run again, it's extremely stressful and causing me to evaluate what I'm doing: If you need something, seek it. If something no longer serves you, let it go. PT helps some, trigger point massage helps some, but in the end, the pain is still there; combing the internet and reading a million articles which all contradict one another - absolutely has my head spinning.
I cannot say I have always handled this disappointment with grace and gratitude. I could dive into that deeper but instead just want to say thanks to all those who have been understanding. It's so hard when we say yes to something and God continues to say no. I wonder if it's a matter of timing, effort, perseverance, or faith. Or maybe God speaks the way I do to my children sometimes when I know they cannot or will not understand or accept my reasons: "Because I said so."
My head hurts - I'm driving myself crazy trying to find the magical cure and my head's had enough! Most of us listen with our heads; but that's where all the noise and chatter reside. The heart speaks with a quieter voice, yet it says the things we most need to hear - and my heart says it just needs to take a break and let go a little. I am ready for my head to quiet down so my heart can speak up and I need to take a little break from my obsessing over this heel. I need to focus on eating well, de-stressing, biking and enjoying some of the simple things in life I have not allowed myself to. After a few weeks, I'll see where I'm at and rethink this madness....
... but I think it's going to make a noticeable difference. I'll keep you posted.
In the meantime....
My good friend, Matty, has a hilarious blog - seriously, he makes me laugh everyday and beyond just the daily smile on my face, he emails me frequently just to make sure I haven't snapped. Some days, I'm sure he regrets asking as I fire up my typing skills and send him an earful (and often tearful) reply. But he hangs in there with me so when Matty decided to do a video dance/singing contest thingie and asked me to participate, I couldn't say no (after an initial anxiety attack!). If you don't follow his blog, you really must - he will truly make you laugh.
I scoured my brain cavity for something to video about; I can't dance nor can I sing well (just ask my kids!). I can't run, no running video here.
I can do physical therapy exercises pretty dang well ... well ok then, so let's do a video about it.
Hopefully this little number will make you laugh...or think to yourself it's the dumbest thing you've ever seen (as my son Brendan told me! Ha) - either way, here's my submission for the contest:
Awesome, right? Yeah, I thought so. Now if you can pleeeeeaaaaseee do me a favor and go over to Matty's contest site and vote for me, I'd greatly appreciate it (I'm begging, folks!). I'd get to win the most unbelievable prize....(aside from a million dollars); who wouldn't want a canvas of Matty doing some sort of inner-thigh clam shell exercise while two flamingos are figuring out how to peck him to death? Oh man, I'd love that hanging in my physical therapy exercise bathroom for total daily inspiration! Click here to vote
(just don't look at the other videos, ok?)
|The much-needed infamous canvass poster|
Thanks guys, you're the best.
Run strong (for me)!